“It’s always good to get your business waxed on the day of the Lord”

I love Tim.

I had lunch with him and Louisa today. It made me feel so. . . .normal. I feel like I haven’t had a normal (read: doing anything fun) life in forever.

I am feeling better. I decided it’s stupid to be so upset over other people. You can’t make people love you. You can’t make people understand you. You just have to do your best and be comfortable with yourself and your decisions. I’ll be fine. I mean . . . I’ve dealt with people leaving me my whole life. What’s a few more??

WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 23

Life is a marathon, not a sprint. There may be times when you feel tired and confused. When that happens, you have to ease up and take it easy on yourself. Allow yourself to embrace the weariness. Many of your greatest breakthroughs come when you’ve reached the final straw. Don’t think that you can’t handle it – you are never given more than you can handle, no matter what you tell yourself.

Michael is home tomorrow. We move this weekend. I had a mini-freak out in Target the other day. I was buying some items for the move (Hello Shower Curtain) and suddenly had a panic attack about Hawaii. Mostly about the fact that I have no “summer” clothes and I am whiter than snow. Normally, I am OK with being white. I mean 1) I am, in fact, white and 2) cancer just isn’t for me. However the thought of all the other people who would probably be much browner then me (I am mexican for God’s sake!) made me feel sad. So I bought Bronzer to wear all week and then I also discovered that lotion that is supposed to make you gradually darker. I picked some up, along with some teeth whitener. I am going for a cross of Ross. Ross from Friends. There’s an episode when he has his teeth whitened and an episode where he gets too much spray tan on one part of his body. I think it will be a good look for me.

Michael is lucky to have me.