Dawn is gone. The time went by so fast, as it always seems to do. It was so fun. The laughing alone, made the weekend. Well, that and the amazing cream puffs. I need to hire her as my personal pastry chef.
It still amazes me how much my life has changed in the last 4 months. Losing friends, changing jobs . . . changing life. Having Dawn here help me realize some of things I want. For example, we were out (shopping) and I mentioned that maybe we should buy gnn.com (fucking AOL owns it). I started talking about how I would really like to learn more about building a website. I think it would be fund to design my own site. . . whether it be a family page (like gnn.com) or my own website, which would include a blog, advice and recommendations. Things I like to do naturally. FUN things. My life seems to lack a lot of fun.
Although . . .Friday night was fun. Between dinner and Jeff getting us drunk, we had a large time (by the way, I stole that phrase from Chickie BECAUSE I LOVE IT). Saturday, we had everyone over. It was fun, but awkward. I doubt that is going to go away. It just seems like some people had to get out the scissors and, I guess, as a granddaughter of Marce, I understand. I am not going to force someone to be my friend. And I am not going to tiptoe around people’s feelings. I never have and I never will.
I’m tired. Tired of changes, tired of losing, tired of being unhappy, tired of feeling like my life is one miserable day after the other, tired of not having anyone here I can really count on, but Michael, tired of feeling like this. As wonderful as this weekend was, it just reminds me of all I am missing.
The countdown to May begins.
LOL When you are having a large time – that is the only phrase that covers it!
You should so build a website! I am so glad that I broke up with Blogger and got my own domain. It’s neat.
I see your top post. I’m sorry. Sometimes, having friends can suck.